pray

Please pray for us as we're on our cruise. We need to use some of this time together to spend time talking and seeking The Lord for direction for our life right now. Josh is again convicted that he is working for compensation instead of where he is called to be, which is home; writing, teaching and building guitar amps. Therefor I will probably be looking for work when we get back. I need something part time or very flexible full time that will allow me to be available to my homeschooled teens if they need me, plus be able to go on my missions trips and still volunteer up at the office 1 or 2 days a week in the missions dept. Otherwise I'd be sacrificing MY calling for his. That's not any better. Please pray for wisdom, guidance, open doors , and peace. Thanks guys!

Thankful

I had a wonderful day today. Had a fabulously fun lunch with my friend Lisa Gatlin at Chuy's. Then I headed downtown to go spend a gift certificate I had for Whole Earth Provision. (love that place) I then went to Tylers in Westlake (again, love it), then went to the Arboretum to Everything But Water and found a new bikini for our cruise. Then came home and got my husband and we went and had a dinner date. Then he just gave me a wonderfully long intense neck massage while he was watching the Spurs game.
I don't know why I am so blessed, The Lord knows how much I don't deserve it, yet He does it anyway. I am constantly amazed.

yep - it's all good

I just want to encourage YOU who are going through trials right now to keep the faith. This is going to pass, and you will make it. God does not give us more than we can handle, He knows our limits and our capabilities, but He is always pushing us further and further each time. Next year you're going to be stronger than you were this year. We are constantly growing. I know about living on the edge of who you are, where you can only rely on Him for your every step. That's a good place to be when you figure out it's not about you anymore. You've just got to let it go. I think I'm finally starting to get it. What happens tomorrow is up to Him, and we have to be ok with that. He's the creator of the universe, who am I? I'll tell you who I am. I'm a daughter of the creator of the universe. A princess who will come in and kick butt, and take names if need be to go about my fathers business. Don't stand between me and my destiny. No one is going to block my path. My God will make a way for me. Thank you Lord for victory.

ready

Ok, no, I'm not dead, just preoccupied :-)
I can't wait to get on that boat Saturday, I am SO ready to skip town. When we return I will only have one week to prepare for Panama. Guess there's not a whole lot to do, unlike the Africa prep. This has been a wildly different pre trip experience. I can't even remember how many times we had to get together as a team, pre-Africa. The Panama team has met ONCE, and the last email we got said arrange for your own transport to the airport, so I guess we won't be meeting again :-)

here's another one of my favorite songs for you.. It's "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield

Panama

Had a pretty productive Panama team meeting this morning. Flights are now reserved. I'm excited again. Not going to be an easy trip, but will be a learning experience.

sorry to be so vague

I hate that I can't even share on my own blog what is going on that's causing so much trouble in my life. But one of the lessons I have learned recently is how to keep my mouth shut!

so, yeah

Yesterday I was still doubting. Not just my trip to Panama, but my calling. But after wise counsel from 2 wise people, and some events that occurred last night, I am pretty certain it's just plain, old fashioned, spiritual attack. That won't stop me. It makes my life more difficult, but not impossible.

The last 6 months or so have been some of the best and worst of my life. I hate the weaknesses that have been revealed in me, but yet I'm faced with certain growth because of them. I am confident God is using this time to mold me into what He needs me to be.

missions

I found out today more specifics of our trip to Panama.. specifics that I don't exactly like :-)
Like getting up at 4 am and having to speak to a group of people I don't know, and do children's ministry, etc... which got me to thinking, why the heck am I going anyway? Why do I want to put myself so far outside my comfort zone into this primitive place to do things I don't really want to do? I don't get it. Why do I set myself up for pain and discomfort? And then get so excited about it?

I can be talking with someone and the topic of traveling to some insanely foreign country for a mission trip comes up and all of a sudden this thing comes over me and I involuntarily turn on this passion and enthusiasm that even I didn't know was there. When I get like that I could convince anyone to go anywhere! But why?? What compels me, and where does it come from?
It absolutely has to be a God thing, that's all I can figure.... What is it that's inside of me that He can use?

another favorite song

Music Video:
The Blowers Daughter by (Damien Rice)

Music Video Code by Video Code Zone

have I mentioned I love song lyrics

"All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you"

ipod

My husband bought me a new red Ipod Nano for Valentines day! I'm so excited cause I have had my old Ipod mini since 2004 and I wore that baby out! I'm addicted to these things.... can't leave home without it.

yep

so yesterday I just needed a change - got a new haircut, the new red dress, a new black dress, a new attitude, a new resolve, and some attitude back... it's a good thing... can't keep a good woman down for long

the dress

Went to the mall tonight and found this fabulous strappy red dress to wear one night on the boat. You know ladies, the kind of dress where you FEEL drop dead gorgeous wearing it, and you get that attitude just putting it on. I love that feeling, even if it's all in my head :-)

cruise

Just 2 weeks till the love boat sets sail for Mexico! I'm starting to get excited. Grandparents are staying with the kids. Yay for close relatives!
The hot Mexico sun, beautiful beaches, no cooking, laundry, or errands, or work, just me and my husband sharing the LOVE for 5 wonderfully long days .... Plus there will be 25 other couples from Celebration...but probably won't see them much.. :-)

truth

Truth is a constant and is not variable according to your daily feelings. Your mood or emotional state does not dictate the truth. It is just an indicator of how you are going to HANDLE the truth on a given day.