That last stupid post landed me an appointment to my doctors office. Me and my big mouth. .
Just mailed all my equipment back to California. Goodbye Google, it's been...interesting. Wouldn't trade the experience though. I learned alot, and grew alot. And I really enjoyed being 'the Google girl' around town.

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About to do my last shoot for Google.

My next project is trying to track down my blood type so I can see whether I'm a potential kidney donor for my mom. Going to visit the doc who did all my surgeries, then maybe the hospitals. Someone has to know.

My asthma is completely out of control. My asthma doc has tried everything, and nothing works on me. And while I'm complaining about my health, what is the deal with having to pee constantly?? I wake up in the middle of the night, I have to go like every hour during the day, at the movies we have to go super early to get the seats in the middle where I can jump over the rail to go in the middle of the movie without disturbing anyone. And I'm thirsty all the time. Though I don't drink constantly, cause when I do, I literally have to go every few minutes. The other day it was ridiculous, 5 minutes in-between !! Guess I'm no spring chicken anymore. .

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Job is over

So today I got an email stating that Austin was going to be considered finished on Friday. And we needed to wrap it up this week and ship our gear back at the end of the week. Wow. That was kind of a shock considering it was supposed to be 4-6 months, and it's only been 2. I was upset for a moment until I realized I get to spend my birthday, and the holidays, home with my family. :)
Money will be tight and I will have to get another job in January, but I get to enjoy the holidays. And for that I am very grateful.
God is good, all the time.

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When God told Adam and Eve not to eat the fruit, it was totally a test to see if they would be obedient. A test He knew they would fail. But why? God sets up the laws and rules for our good. But there are tons of people like me who think they know better. How are we made to be so arrogant? What made/makes me think I can get away with anything? Sure I was/am forgiven. But the consequences we live out everyday are what kills us. He knows the pain and the toll it takes on our lives, to live against His word. Which is why He cautions us against it. It's like when you tell your toddler not to touch the stove cause it's hot, but he touches it anyway and is burned. We as a parent aren't mad at him, we mourn for the pain he is in and wishes he would have just been obedient in the first place so he wouldn't be in this situation.
But we have been failing this test since day 1 in the garden. How do we have any hope of conquering it? No one has succeeded but Jesus. So then is every day just a sliding scale of how badly we screw up? Why is playing by the rules so incredibly difficult for some of us? It seems to go against our very nature of a created being.
I meet people all the time who are content where they are and actually Desire to be told what to do and what the rules are. It simply boggles my mind. I can't even comprehend their attitude. Is our DNA really that different?
Don't get me wrong, I have become a very humbled and submitted woman over the last year and a half. I've screwed up royally and have handed over the reigns. But someday I may get them back and what if my old, rebellious nature returns? What happens on the day that I'm not feeling like pond scum? When I get some self esteem back? When my boldness and confidence returns? When I have forgiven myself? If that day ever comes, what then?
Will I be a new creation? Will I have learned to not 'touch the stove' because He says so?
I have to believe that I will.
( just to clarify - I will NEVER do what I did, again. I am mainly referring to day to day obedience and attitude adjustments. ) (I may be an idiot, but I'm not incapable of learning from my mistakes)
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This Thanksgiving weekend was one of my favorites. Quality time is one of my love languages, and I got to spend lots of time with my family. A close second was the year we took off with our much younger girls and ran away from Thanksgiving and headed to the hills; of Arkansas. Our families weren't pleased but Josh and I made some lasting memories as a young family. We even got chased across the state by a tornado.

I really don't care much about the food involved in this holiday, but I love having an excuse for a big ole dinner party :) And having 5 days off in a row wasn't too shabby either. I've always taken that part for granted.
I start easing back into the photog life tomorrow by running production cameras in 2 of the services. I am actually running camera 1 in the main auditorium during the 5 o'clock service. Never done that.
Josh is already snoring. It amazes me how fast he can fall asleep. Takes me forever.
I figured out how to make 3 new things this weekend. . Pumpkin spice bread, cream turkey, and carrot cake. And according to the consumers, and myself, they were absolutely wonderful. Josh said the carrot cake was one of the best he's ever had. (that's his favorite cake) I'm pretty proud of myself for being so domestic :)
Who'd have guessed I had it in me?

The girls and I went shopping today and came across some killer deals on some clothes for them. And we didn't even have to get up pre dawn!
Josh built guitar amps all day.

Yesterday, as you know, Josh and I went to San Antonio for the Spurs game. Well the girls stayed home and their 'big brothers' came over to hang out and watch the game on tv with them! The girls were so excited to have them over while we were gone and those boys earned some serious brownie points with me. Thank you Michael, Chase and Chris. You guys are the best of the best.
We love on these guys, and try to pour into their lives, and times like these, we get to see the fruit. :)
Well, enough of my blog rambling, I'm going to bed. GN

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Happy Birthday to the best husband in the world!

I hope you had fun today. I enjoyed going to the Spurs game with you tonight :)

 

Thanksgiving lunch was fabulous. It was so good to have my aunt, uncle and cousin over, who I haven't seen in several years. For the reason of purely having family get togethers, I wish there were more Thanksgiving type holidays throughout the year. I love this picture. It makes me happy.

Michael is home for Thanksgiving. We've got one more happy girl there in the middle watching the Spurs game :)

You know how when your seatbelt locks you in, for some reason or another and you buck and twist wildly to get out of it, only it doesn't release you until you calm down and be still? Yeah. I love that. It happened to me this morning. And it reminded me of how I've been held so tightly these last 18 months. I have felt safe, and secure, and loved. I have been fought for. I have been held together when I wasn't coherent enough to know what was best for me. And honestly, once I settled down and the grip slowly loosened, I kinda missed that secure feeling.
Yeah, I love my seatbelt.

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Sitting in between two male guitar players watching the Spurs/Magic game. You'd think they were the coaches. Pretty stinkin funny listening to them yell at the tv. Their commentating is the reason I'm up here. Pure entertainment.

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So I'm having 18 family members over for Thanksgiving. Josh and I just spent 18 minutes arguing about how big a turkey we needed at HEB. We kissed for 18 seconds afterwards to make up. (Ok, so the last two 18's are fictitious), (only in number though). We ended up buying a large turkey, and another large turkey breast and a small ham. Hopefully it's enough meat. I'm currently trying out a recipe for pumpkin spice bread, and I must say my house smells delicious. I do wish I didn't have to work Monday and Tuesday so I could stay home and play.
For the first time in like forever, I didn't make it to Junior Leagues Christmas Affair this week. That's a bummer. I love getting a jump on my shopping at that event. As of now, I have bought.. nothing. Too busy with birthdays and Thanksgiving. Josh's is Friday. I'm taking him to the Spurs/Mavericks game Friday night.., that should be fun. This is my favorite time of year. I know, it's most peoples too. But we also get all 4 of our birthdays in the 2 months before Christmas; so that makes it extra special. Birthdays are a big deal around here. The birthday boy/girl gets to pick what we do all day long; including where to eat every meal. Plus, lots of presents and cakes, and parties (sometimes). It's always a fun day for all of us. I love that about our family.
Gotta go cook dinner...

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