I SOOO need a vacation. I am so tired. And no rest for the weary. I have been working on the yard every minute I've been home today. Nearly passed out from heat stroke. But got alot accomplished.
I think my job is starting to wrap up. I have finished both maps that I was given and am now working on neighborhoods outside the maps. Kinda on my own at this point. Just waiting for the call that says time to move the car to the next location. I will be glad, there's so much I need time to catch up on. My house needs a good deep cleaning, and I need some rest, and then I need to get back in shape. Driving all day long is not good for the waist line. I also need to get back to my travel job.
My pond is looking so nice. I'll post a pic soon. All the surrounding flowers are so green and almost ready to bloom. It's just beautiful to sit on the bench and hear the waterfall and fountain. I love fountains. I want them all over the place. I'm trying to convince Josh I need this huge round multi layer one I saw today. I told him I could put it right in the middle of the entry way.   :)   I don't think he's buying it..
We are currently watching the Spurs who just clinched the Western Conference title. GSG! Chase is here, wish Michael was too.
Can't wait for summer!
I'm getting excited about the possibility of getting an insurance settlement from Josh's accident. If we get what we think we might, we could pay off all our taxes, take a nice family vacation this summer, and have some left for some home repairs that need done, or something. That would be beyond incredible. I'm trying not to get too excited, lest I also get disappointed, but at the same time, I'm believing for the blessing. I have no doubt how good our God is!

Yesterday I was mooned. By a middle aged man. Who really wants their butt on a public map forever?! Trashy.
Oh, and I broke my tooth and had  to go to the dentist. Now I need 2 crowns.
But the day ended well and today is gonna be better. I just know it.

So we found out that the guy who Josh 'collided' with had very minimal insurance. Only 30k. Our base ER bill is 24k. That is NOT including doctors, CT scans, MRI's, X-rays, labs, drugs, ambulance, followup visits he's had, etc. Needless to say, it's not enough money. We are discussing our options. Josh wants to sue the guy. I'm still not comfortable with that. We are seeking wisdom this week from friends in insurance and law. Pray for guidance for us.

Then I come home today and there are shingles all over the yard from the winds.
And we owe even more money to the IRS.
Living is so expensive.

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Hey, can anyone recommend a tax professional? A real one? Not a teenager at the mall or a guy out waving signs, that will merely follow the same prompts I have been using in different software. But a REAL cpa or something? I asked this question last year and got no where, but maybe I have a different audience this time around..

"how long have I 
been in this storm 
so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form 
water's getting harder to tread 
with these waves crashing over my head 

if I could just see you 
everything will be alright 
if I'd see you 
the darkness will turn to light 

and I will walk on water 
and you will catch me if I fall 
and I will get lost into your eyes 
and everything will be alright 
and everything will be alright 

I know you didn't 
bring me out here to drown 
so why am I 10 feet under and upside down 
barely surviving has become my purpose 
cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface 

if I could just see you 
everything will be alright 
if I see you 
the darkness will turn to light 

and I will walk on water 
and you will catch me if I fall 
and I will get lost into your eyes 
and everything will be alright 

and I will walk on water 
you will catch me if I fall 
and I will get lost into your eyes 
and everything will be alright 
I know everything is alright 
everything's alright "


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I spent a good portion of the weekend at church running camera for our mens conference. They were some great messages, but the physical demand on my body was just too much. My shoulder muscles are bruised from overuse. It's just not ok for your body to be in that position for hours on end. I much prefer mens events to womens, however. Better food, better music, and being in a room full of men puts me at ease. I feel safe, and protected, and comfortable. I always had mostly male friends growing up, and brothers, so I just feel better around them. As opposed to womens events where I am uncomfortable and on edge, and I don't know what to do with myself. It's not that I'm manly. Quite the opposite. I consider myself very feminine and prefer dresses to jeans any day. But I guess I just have trouble relating to most women. Not sure why. I don't like bridal/baby showers, tea parties, salad luncheons, etc.. But I love being a woman. Can't figure it out.
Robert Barriger spoke this weekend. He's a missionary with one of the most influential churches in Peru
(Camino De Vida).  He has an orphanage that rescues abandoned children and raises them. Amazing ministry. He is so inspirational to me. Just a surfer who wanted to change the world, and God used him. I pray I can one day be used again. 
Josh went to the neurologist today and was assured that all the side effects he's having are normal. And he will recover; it's just going to take some time. Good news.
I stopped into the Bistro in Gtown for lunch today and spent well over an hour talking with the owner Louann(an acquaintance). Had a great chat, didn't intend to stay that long, but I am so glad I did. I really like her. I am having lunch with Rene tomorrow, the Gatlins on Wednesday, and seeing Heather Thursday night. I think maybe I'm missing my friends.   Lonely, and feeling blue. Grateful for all the blessing in my life though. I really really am.

So I got home from work today and immediately threw down my purse and the mail and headed outside to get my gardening gloves. It had been 3 days since the last time I got to play outside. I decided to dig up this huge tropical plant/bush that I loved, that had not survived the cold this year. I can't believe how difficult it was! I kept digging and digging and digging and I would pull, but it just wouldn't come out. That's when the spiritual light bulb came on. This is what it must have been like with me. I had to get out my gardening loppers and literally cut the roots, all 50 of them, and even then I had to use all my might and a shovel to pry this thing out. When it finally came out, there was this hole. A crater. If I don't fill it with something beautiful and alive, it will fill itself, with all manner of nastiness. It's like a blank canvas. Ready to be created again. Wow. Heavy stuff, huh?
Well before you go thinking I'm just that Holy, listen to this. I then proceeded to turn on the garden hose and while messing around with my new nozzle, it came on full blast and sprayed me right in the face. Like a hard flood, on my face. I literally laughed out loud. :)

On Saturday Jordan and I went prom dress shopping, with great success. Sunday I was back on cameras for first 2 services, then Sunday night Jordan and I went with Renè and Joe and Lori to see Cirque de Soleil. Amazing show. Hannah stayed with Josh for me.
After work today I pulled weeds and removed all the dead plant leaves from my pond garden. I also planted onions, tomatoes, eggplant(accidentally grabbed the wrong vegetable seedling at the store), and strawberries in the back yard. Can't wait to see them all grow. I love playing in the dirt. It makes me happy and I don't know why.
Josh is a bit better today. That makes me happy and I do know why.

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I'm still here. Between taking care of things at the house, Josh, and the new job, there is no more me time. Or blog time. Hopefully things will die down in the drama department soon. Josh's recovery is coming along at a snails pace. He could use more prayers. We actually went back to the ER at some point this week because of burning, numbness and tingling in the area of his pizza sized, black hematoma. All they found was another fractured rib they hadn't found before. So he's home resting all week, seeing as how he can't put on real clothes or walk real well.
My job has become tedious and boring, already.  Even though I got some time off this week to care for Josh.  I drive around in circles all day. Every culdesac, every dead end, every traffic circle, every dang street. I think driving for 2 straight weeks is starting to get to my head. Making me a little crazy and antisocial. (No comments from the gallery)  It's an even lonelier job than the last G** one. I don't ever get out of the car. At least on the cross country trip I had other people to play with. We made games out of driving, criss crossing, hide and seek around the 18 wheelers, windshield wiper spray targets, you name it, the desert was the playground. But here I am all alone. Boo hoo. Ok, pity party over.
I am so grateful for a job, and a very alive husband.

Thank you Jesus.

Got the call this evening you never want to get. The one from the police department telling you your husband has been in an accident and is being taken to the hospital. He was on a bike ride, I was at the gym. They told me he was unconscious for 20 minutes, according to the nurse who witnessed the whole thing on a bike behind him. Apparently a car was parked on the shoulder on Parmer lane and right when josh was flying by he opened the door. Josh flew over the door at a huge speed and skidded and landed pretty far away. He doesn't remember a thing until waking up in the ambulance. By the time I got to the hospital, Renè, Chase, Daniel and Will were all there and he had been taken back for scans. One broken rib, a jacked up arm, and a bad concussion. Miracle I tell you. Absolute miracle. The helmet pictured below, and prayer, saved his life. So grateful I have him lying next to me tonight. And so thankful for true friends who helped us so much tonight.
I am in awe.

Today Hannah got to play piano in the adult services. One of our regulars was on vacation. This was a huge step for her and a great honor. The guys in this band are world class, and for her at the age of 14 to get to play with them was huge. She was soooo excited, and she did great. I absolutely loved seeing her and her daddy both playing on the same stage.

Received one of the best texts of my life while on the road. Had to share.

"Good news. My kidneys have improved. I'm no longer in end stage renal failure. Every reason to believe that I could continue to improve. Celebrate for me!

Love mom."

Thank you all for praying, it's working!!!!

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Long driving day, but will be home tomorrow. Fort Stockton is lame. Just so you know..