gratitude

Thank you Lord for your grace. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for surrounding me with wise people. Thank you for your perfect timing. I thank you that I get to go back to Africa. Thank you for mercy and your endless forgiveness in my life. Thank you for whatever new thing you're about to do in my life. I thank you that you know me so well and know I love "new". Thank you that I never have to be bored with my life or comfortable. Thank you for trusting me with so much. I thank you for the new people that are about to surround me in my new path. I thank you for those you are already showing me. You never cease to amaze. I love you Lord and am truly your humble servant.

Faith

Great message from Stovall Weems this weekend. It was exactly what I needed to hear.
God has not called us to interpret life when it doesn't make sense. Just to have faith in Him. Only He sees the big picture. Only He knows what's good for us. His plan is better than what we think we want. His vision is so much better than our limited ability to see our future. We want it our way because it may be pleasant to taste or experience, but He wants what's good for us, what helps us grow. Our faith must be grounded in God alone. Not people.

Wow. You really learn who your friends are, and aren't in a crisis situation.
I am deeply saddened.

I keep forgetting that I'm going to Africa in 2 weeks! I haven't gotten shots, thought about packing, or prepared at all for being gone for 10 days in December. I was going to have the Christmas shopping done, cards ready, party planned, etc... and I have done none of that. Bad time for a life/friend/church crisis I guess...
Lord come, I need your help. Lift me from this funk and return to me the joy of my salvation, and my passion for Africa. Remind me Lord why I have fought so hard for this.

Change

Change is coming, that's for sure. So might as well use this time to make some changes myself.
Today I'm changing my hair color. I'm tired of the blonde for now. It may be back next summer. Next, I'm going to start researching how to start my own non-profit organization. Then I'm going to make an extra effort to surround myself with people I don't know in an effort to change my circle of influence. Then I'm going to pack and go to Mexico for a couple of days (like in the morning). When I get back, I will continue down this path of change. I'm being forced down it by outside means and circumstances, so instead of being shoved, I will stand up and make my own new way.

Lord set before me my path. Illuminate the way in which I'm to go. Make yourself known and glorified through my life. Use me as your vessel to take hope to the world.