So I'm cleaning out my study this afternoon and I find my old journal from my first trip to Africa in 2007. A monumental trip for me. I read the whole thing. It was very emotional, and heartbreaking. You see, I read this page that was written before I left while we were in training. Do you see the words right in the middle? "testing will come" I don't think I wrote those words nearly big enough or loud enough. Nor do I think I believed them. Pity the young fool.

Where am I today? No where out of the ordinary, just my house, where this wonderful sword hangs on my wall. After getting the grocery shopping done, I have stayed home today and cleaned. Mostly the wood blinds. Every single dirty disgusting slat. Spring cleaning long overdue.. Plus we have a houseful of people coming every thursday night this summer for our music theory small group.. Good times people, good times.

I think I have writers block. I am home with a wrecked car, still, and I have a few errands to run, and a house to clean, but I really do have a minute to write an update. But I can't.  I think over the last 2 years all the words I have, have come out. I've got nothing else. It's all been said. I also have no new adventures to write about. No fun and interesting stories. Maybe it's time to shut this site down for a while. Or maybe I could challenge myself with a 'photo a day' assignment or something. Yeah, an iphone pic a day that documents my summer. It wouldn't require any editing or uploading, just straight from my phone to here. Yeah, that would be fun. :)
Ok, it's on..

my car got a boo boo in Killeen today, guess I get a few days off

'Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.
Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.'
John 12:24,25

Sent from my iPhone

I have a song on my iPod that is totally uncharacteristic, and unsimilar to anything else on it, and I have an inkling as to where I may have gotten it, but am not completely sure. It's one of those songs I haven't brought myself to delete because every time it comes on it makes me smile and sing along. Don't know who the artist is but It's something like 'it was just the tequila talking, when I told you I'm still not over you, I get a little sentimental when I've had one or two..' and 'that tear in my eye was the salt in the lime, not the memory of you walking'
And sung in the twangiest of twangy country music. I mean TWANG with a capital T. Don't like that stuff normally, but for some reason this song cracks me up. Whenever it pops up I crank it up and sing at the top of my lungs. :)

I know it's been a while, but I haven't felt like writing. Sometimes I don't want to be a downer. Like a line in another song says ' these words are my diary screaming out loud , and I know that you'll use them however you want to. '
I'm not as public a figure as I used to be. I'm actually quite the hermit these days, when I'm not at work. Things that used to excite me, don't anymore. And things I used to detest, I crave. I don't even know or understand the person I am becoming. How could I possibly explain it to you in words? I have died a slow and painful death, and now I haven't a clue what the sprout coming up out of the ground is going to be, once grown.

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Ha! This is funny. I am sitting in the exact same spot that I typed fridays blog post from. A random county road where my laser croaked. It is now fixed thanks to Josh, but now I'm waiting on the rain again. Just when it seems to be gone and I take the cover off, here come the sprinkles. My lenses don't like sprinkles....
The killing of Osama is all anyone's talking about today. We've been waiting for this for nearly ten years. But unfortunately this doesn't change our terror risk. I'm really not excited about all of Josh's upcoming business trips. You know the terrorists are planning revenge attacks. Oh well, you can't live life in fear.
Oh, I forgot to tell you, I'm having carpal tunnel symptoms in my wrist. It's likely from driving in circles all day. It hurts. (whining)
Josh had another MRI this morning. His neurologist is checking for nerve damage in his back and hip. He finally this weekend had a break from the vertigo. Hopefully it's gone for good.
Gonna try driving again...

website headings today

SHOT IN HEAD; BIN LADEN IS DEAD.....
**SEALS HELD TWO REHEARSALS; OBAMA WATCHED RAID IN SITUATION ROOM...
Mission was to kill, not capture...
Crowds gather at White House, Ground Zero to celebrate...
Obama: U.S. Carried Out Operation 'At My Direction'...
W: 'No Matter How Long It Takes, Justice Will Be Done'...
Killing brings anger, relief in Arab world...
Heat on Pakistan...
Hamas condemns killing of 'holy warrior'...

BURIED AT SEA:
WH DEBATES RELEASING PHOTO OF CORPSE

OSAMA IS DEAD!!!
10 years later...