Yet another chapter of my life is now closed. I can't believe how
quickly seasons have come and gone this year. I'm feeling very small
and insignificant.
I'm kind of sad to let this year go this way, but hopeful that the
next one will bring back the peace and joy.
Catch you all on the flip side.
Love, shileen

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Thanks to my secret admirer for fixing
my tire while I slept. :-)

Driving.

"I just wanna fly
Put your arms around me baby,
Put your arms around me baby"

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So a coupla years ago I saw a necklace in a movie that I just had to
have. It was a simple gold necklace with three stars a few inches
apart. I searched for over a year for one like it but eventually just
gave up. Well, Josh had one custom made for me for Christmas. I know
it couldn't have been cheap, being solid gold and all, and it was so
precisely measured to where the middle star lays right between my
collar bones, just like I like it. It's perfect. (He is so good to
me.) I should take a pic of it tomorrow, cause it's kinda dark now
under the covers, shhh.. everyone else is sleeping :-)
Wore my red heels today and tonight. I love that they make me even
taller. I love being tall. And I love that it doesn't bother Josh one
bit.
Today will be my last day at the bank. What lies ahead for me in 2010?
It's a big surprise..!

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Dear blog people,
My right front tire is low, can someone please come fix it?
Thank you, shileen

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Saw Sherlock Holmes tonight. Liked it alot. I've been home almost 2
hours and just now took off my coat. It's sooo cold in this voluminous
drafty house. I'm in bed with my scarf on. :-)
Thursday is my last day at the bank. Not sad about that. Going to see
my Amy in Baltimore at the end of January to celebrate my freedom, and
her 40th birthday... This time should be less dramatic, huh Ames??
Hey order some snow for me and call me tomorrow when u get a minute.
Hey, why don't I have any friends who live on the beach?! I'm tired of
the cold after New York.
Below is my new iPhone screen saver. I think I'm overdue for a trip to
Mexico..

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2009 has been one of the best and worst years of my life. I was bolder
than I ever have been, and also learned my limits. I have loved more
than ever and been hurt more than ever. I have learned that I'm not
'all that' that I thought I was. To some I am completely replaceable
and forgetable, but to others I am invaluable. My pride has taken a
huge hit this year, but I'm learning humility. I'm learning how to
keep walking, when you don't think you can go another step. I'm
learning how to start over.
I am stronger than I thought I was.
I have survived drugs, therapy, losing my bff's, and the humiliation
of returning home and then to church, and the unbearable pain of
hurting and shaming my family. And I'm still here. I didn't die or
throw myself in front of a train. And the biggest miracle of all -
they still want me here. I AM irreplaceable. I AM unforgettable. I am
'all that' and a bag of chips, to the people under this roof. They
keep me going. One foot in front of the other.
However...
I am so thankful this year is almost over. I am soo done with 2009.

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Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night.

Happy Birthday Jesus

It's snowing on Christmas Eve in Austin, Tx. It's a Christmas miracle!
Jordan and I are baking while Hannah and Josh play and sing at church
all afternoon. I love my chocolate dipped homemade gingerbread men..

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Happy Festivus!

I think I have aged more in the last year than I have in the last decade. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally. I really think I will never be the same. Maybe a more "mature" version of me would be good for the world..

Guess we all have to grow up someday.

"illusion never changed, into something real..
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.."

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Yes, of course we have a live camel at church..

i miss shileen

my NYC

On my way home.
I had a fabulous birthday weekend.
Thanks mom for staying with the girls!

Pics to follow...

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Had another wonderful action packed day. I am beyond exhausted. Did
more shopping and sightseeing and explored Central Park. But the best
thing was the ice skating. We skated in the park, then since it's
supposed to rain tomorrow, later in the night (around 10:30) we skated
at Rockefeller under the big tree!
I was soo excited. During the 1.5 hour wait we made some new friends
from Boston. August and Andrea. :-)
We also witnessed 2 proposals center ice. That was really cool.
We finally got lost on the subway which led to further travel
adventures.
Have got some great photos to post when I get home.
Tomorrow is my birthday! Wait, it's tomorrow already!

Didn't get a cable, too busy, so the real photos will have to wait
till I get home. Spent most of the day shopping in 18-22 degree
weather with a strong wind I have a new understanding of cold. Even
got Josh wearing a scarf, or two. I love the stores here. Soo much of
a selection of everything...
We went to Radio City Music Hall tonight and saw the Christmas show
with the Rockettes. That was... interesting.
We feel like subway experts at this point. :-)
I still love this town.
Hi mom and girls, I love you all!!

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