Shileen's Blog

Three years ago, in this month, I was lost. I was lost in a web of lies and destruction. How fast a "normal" Christian woman can fall from a stable family and church life into complete darkness is scary as hell. All it takes is an opening. An area of dissatisfaction. An area of incomplete wholeness. A void. A vulnerability. A weak spot in your armor. Then Satan rushes in and fills it with something, or in my case, someone who can fill it. Someone who is not Jesus. And once you start to feel full you will believe any lie, any deception. Your mind can make you believe anything, because it likes the feeling of fullness. No matter how false it is. It is really frightening to me, the powerlessness we can have over our own selves at times. If we don't have the Word of God constantly running through our heads that speaks truth over the lies we have no hope of staying sane. If we don't have the help of the Holy Spirit to remind us of the truths of God's Word, we have no power to remember them. If you are out there fighting something alone,without the power of God on your side, you will be devoured. Maybe not by another man, but by whatever is haunting you. Believe me, I speak from experience. Don't isolate yourselves for fear of humiliation. Find a loving, living church. Humiliation is worth the salvation and deliverance. You will never be able to fill the void with the things of this world. Only Jesus can truly satisfy.