Feeling much better; not 100%, but better.

I'm still here. It was a rough weekend. The pain has gone down in intensity, it's the side effects of the meds that are bothering me. I had to switch to a different drug on Saturday because the world wouldn't stop spinning. This new one is better, but still not pleasant. I'm afraid it may not be enough though, cause he said the pain would be gone after 3 days and it's not.  Side effect of switching drugs mid course maybe? Going to finish this round before worrying about it.
God is in control, not me.

Random facts:
*Ok, so on our girls cruise in March we(Jordan and I) are doing a dolphin swim. I'm kinda excited about that.
*I am so thankful for my husband.
*Here in ATX, I think we have decided to skip winter.
*I am so thankful my new crockpot arrived. I will celebrate today by making a roast.
*I got a bunch of Carnival "schwag" when we went to visit the Magic Inaugural in Galveston, and well, I didn't want it, it's a bunch of useless crap with their logo on it taking up space in my closet. So I decided to sell it on ebay. Oh MY!! These people love that stuff! I sold all of it and made like $120! Makes me want to see what else I can dig up.
*I am so thankful for a good nights sleep last night. Sometimes it's the little things..

Oh what a night..
I laid down to go to sleep and was struck with this horrible pain in my lower left abdomen. No matter how I positioned myself I couldn't get rid of it. By about 2 or 3AM I was seriously considering going to the ER, but I didn't want to leave the girls home alone. I watched the clock slowly roll on and around 5am I made an online appointment with my doctor. Around 8 am the pain finally let up enough to fall asleep. But I was awakened by my dr's text scheduling an appt for 1:30pm. So I am on about 2 hours sleep. Went in, and he thinks it's what I suspected, a flare up of diverticulitis. I had this once before years ago. He decided to skip the testing since I told him I'd had it before, and he went straight for the hardcore antibiotics. 2 different kinds of them, 6 pills a day for 2 weeks. The side effects listed on these things almost seem worse than the pain. (They include psychotic episodes, haha) But the risk of my colon rupturing is much worse. He said about 1 in 20 rupture during a flare up, and rupture is very bad. I can't run or exercise(risk of rupture or a torn tendon), have to eat bland foods, and not a sip of alcohol or I'll immediately throw up(not a problem, just amusing). And if the pain doubles or triples all of a sudden, I must rush to the ER.
I'm so glad Josh is on his way home to me. :) 
Please join me in prayer that not only does my colon not rupture, but that it heals and never breaks down again. Also that I won't have really bad side effects to these drugs. Thanks friends.

My beloved crockpot bit the dust. When I went to put dinner in this morning before heading to work, I found a huge crack in the pot. Boo. I use this bad boy several times a week. They just don't make them like they used to. This was crockpot number 2 in my home. The first one lasted a very long time, this one only 2 years. Oh well, new one is already ordered and on the way. Can't do without it.

Did I seriously just blog about a crockpot?? When did I become Betty freakin Crocker??
What is happening to me ?!?

In other news, Josh will be boarding a plane in just a few hours for his journey home  :)

Today I ran for the first time since before the holidays. This was a mistake. I have been suffering with headaches and dizziness for a little over a month probably due to allergies and such. Well this just made it 100x worse. I thought my head would explode. So as soon as I returned and could see straight, I made another dr's appointment. Last time I went he said I had an infection. And while taking the antibiotics, I did feel much better. But after a week it was back.
Minor inconveniences in the grand scheme of things.
I want my husband back.

I know I'm not blogging. I'm depressed. I HATE Josh being gone. I don't function properly. It's kinda like walking around in a daze for some reason. The only thing I can think to do is read or clean during the day and watch chick flicks with the girls at night. Except Michael's here for the long weekend, so that nixes the last half of my plan.
I guess this means we're co dependent. (He keeps sending me sad messages too.) There are worse things to be with your spouse. We've been married 19 years, that's a long time.
My fingers sting and they're all dried out from bleach and other cleaning supplies. And yet, somehow, the house still isn't clean. It doesn't look all that different. Maybe that's a sign of a really dirty house. Or maybe not, I don't know anymore.
Going back to it now, cause yeah, I have nothing intelligent to say..

Josh is in Germany :(
Hannah got her drivers permit :)

Service tonight was pretty amazing. We did a lot of worship, had communion, and had a prayer and prophecy time with the prayer team and staff. I went and visited with Pat, my mentor from a couple of years ago, and told her I was asking for wisdom and direction for this next phase of my life. She started praying over me and said a bunch of wonderful things about me and my steadfast-ness, and then said this -
"In this next season of life God is going to deliver a surprise package and it will be something greater than you even imagined. It will put into play all of your past so that what you've experienced will not be wasted. " She was even surprised when she finished, indicating it wasn't from her.
Change is coming in 2012. Joe says this communion, and our relationship to Jesus will need to be strong enough to  sustain us through this year. I felt like that meal was the beginning of a new life.  I need to grow some stronger, deeper roots, so that I will not be shaken, no matter what comes my way.

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Yesterday sucked. That's all I have to say about that.
Today we went to UT to get Jordan's passport renewed with no wait! Unheard of, so glad to have found this little gem of a place. And then...
Jordan accepted her offer of admission to A&M Galveston, and preregistered for the new student conference, and I put down a housing deposit. This is getting way too real and official...   Like, really freaking out. My child is really going. I'm sure you'll hear me whine even more as the months go by, so prepare yourself. Let me say something else, it's freakin expensive to send your kids to college! Just today I shelled out 75 for the conference fee, and 300 for the housing deposit. That's just today! 15k per year plus food and gas and whatever else she will need. It's a great deal compared to other schools, but is still alot of money. I don't have a spare 1200 a month. I filled out the FAFSA (financial aid forms) and according to them we have tons of money rolling in. They only ask for income, not expenses, so we're ruled out on need based on that. Hopefully she will be considered for aid based on merit. She has exceptional grades and great test scores. Otherwise we'll have one heck of a loan. 

Breathing in deeply....... exhale slowly.....

This has been a very low key start to the year. I finished my Hunger Games trilogy, and haven't done a whole lot else. Everyone is enjoying the laziness of the last few days of vacation before the chaos begins again. Michael goes back to Waco this coming weekend, and then the reality of school hits hard. Jordan's last semester, Hannah in drivers ed. Let the fun begin! It will be a whirlwind of applying for financial aid and scholarships, doing college paperwork, teaching Hannah to drive, Jordan's birthday cruise in March. Prom in April. Then graduation and hopefully Thailand in May. Lots of schoolwork in there. And Josh starts his travel year by going back to Berlin in a couple of weeks. Oh, and I have to go back to work tomorrow.
I know this semester will fly by, but I will try and enjoy every last second of it. I will miss this all too soon.